There's power in what we say.

I'm just amazed at the power of our words. Last year, while I was still Jubilee House committee, I said that I want to do a production, at the time I wanted to organize one for fund raising. I ended up acting and singing in a one larger than I imagined.

My mother told me that when she was young, she said that her children would go to school in town, and this was during the apartheid times, she was rebuked and laughed at by her peers because it was absurd at the time. Would you have it, I was the first of my cousins to go to school in town.

I just love it, when declarations come to pass, it's sooo refreshing!! 

It's crazy because it speaks to trust, it's almost an "oh my soul You came through for me" kind of feeling, maybe there isn't like a lot of doubt but I really long for a kind of faith and trust in God that I will have no hint of shock when He comes through because I would have trusted and believed with all my heart.

Foolish faith..


So I went home for a short while these past holidays. I have a dream to become a famous artist and to no surprise to most black children my parents freaked out when they realized just how serious I was. I expected it but I also expected support. My parents told me stories of artists who have started but weren't successful and stuff, or just people who chose to not go to work, some comments were passed about how my degree would be a waste if I didn't go to work. I mean a lot of hurtful stuff were said and this is by people who are not trying to hurt me at all, it was all so painful and frustrating.


But I realized that I have come a long way with my battle of acceptance, I'm freed from that and over and above everything I know just how badly I want to attain this dream. It stopped being just a cute little fuzzy dream when I realized I dont want to continue a legacy of people who are trapped in a job because of circumstances, my mother doesn't like her job, but she stays in it because it enables her and my dad to provide for our family, which I truly appreciate, but I cannot let it continue on with me. 


I want a legacy of people who take risks and trust God to pull through, a foolish faith kind of life. People who get into burning furnaces because they just refuse to bow to a false god, I want those kind of descendants and it has to start with me, a kind of faith that speaks for itself. So support and all would be great but I need to go through with it with or without support, because I believe that this is where God has called me to serve. I desire to transform secular music because the devil doesn't own anything, I want all music to be back at a place where it honours God, the creator of everything. I'm sick and tired of love songs written from a perverted place. Music permeates, I dream of life being proclaimed, people feeling encouraged, people being affirmed, lives changing for the better every single time the radio is switched on. I'm gonna be foolish about this dream and chase it like I've seen it happen before.

I want to be wanted....(Pushing Limits)

Can't sit around waiting to be swept of my feet

Can't sit around hopeless

I can't wait aimlessly

I desire a love from another like most people do

I also desire to be desired

I deserve it, I'm worth it

So I won't be ashamed or be labeled as weird for not being hit on, on a regular basis

I won't be pushed to settle

I won't stop wanting to be wanted

I do refuse to lay here hopeless

I'd always thought there's something wrong with me

But if you're blind to my greatness then it's not for you

I'd always thought maybe tomorrow

But if it takes many tomorrows for a King to meet his Queen then surely it's worth it

I'm great, it's on you if you don't see it.

G-town Arts Fest Experience

Two months ago I knew very little if anything at all about the National Arts Festival, two months ago I had no idea I loved acting or that I could even do it, two months ago had anyone told me I would be on a national stage in two months time, I would have giggled and said "sure man" 


I'm blown away by how this experience played out. I was performing in a production called "The Falling Truths" as a woman who's husband left to go work in a harsh mine far away from home, leaving her feeling trapped in a rural area. It was quite an experience to be able to live in the characters world, even during rehearsals, wow!!! To own a story and be able to actively tell it.


The biggest thing is the fact that I was a first time actress on a national stage! WOAH!!! It's that whole thing about God listening to our hearts more than the stuff we tern to say! I would never have listed acting as something I would do prior to this experience and now I'm open to try stuff out, PUSH LIMITS!! I did have moments of doubt, moments of feeling as if someone could do it better than I could, those moments were also moments of total surrender for me, moments where I allowed God to fully be God. 


Grahamstown was amazing, a breath of fresh air. It hit me that for what I'm pursuing, that's the kind of life I'm gonna have for a bit, a life on the road. But I loved every single moment, it's crazy! Even the moments I was dead exhausted, I felt like yaaaay!!! I'm tired from doing what I love to do. God gave me more than a glimpse, an experience of a lifetime. Art is a beautiful thing. I'm at a place in my life where I can no longer deny what I want, I cant pretend anymore. One thing left for me to do, going after what I want however way, in whatever form lead my way by God. Praise be to my Lord and buddy Jesus Christ.