...What is it?

So the thing is that God fully believes in us, He believes in us because we are made in His image and we have all the qualities to become all that we wanna become, we have all the qualities to be awesome at it. When we continuously give up on things we say that we wanna do, we discredit ourselves to our own selves. We begin to stop believing more and more in our abilities to follow through on a decision, and we get good at that. So the thing is not that we stop being able, we just stop believing and when we stop believing we are pretty much disabled. 

“Goliath was the best thing that ever happened to David” 
― Carla Lynne Hall

Sepedi leleme la geso

I remember being somewhat forced to take Sepedi as a first language when I was in grade 10 when a new law or strong suggestion came to our school encouraging everyone to take their home language as a first language. Change would scare the socks off me, but I know now that it was also my deep desire to keep excelling, maintain the Top10 status, so I was as the front line of the people strongly disagreeing with this. I mean were they crazy?? We were in grade 10, they were planning on shoving grade 1 to grade 9 knowledge  into our heads and I had heard my cousins who did Sepedi complain about how difficult the thing is. 

For me it meant also that I wasn't gonna be a "snob" that all my cousins had labelled me as, I mean over the years I had come to like it. Now me being fluent in my home language in my mind was gonna make me like them, a Sepedi speaking normal black girl in a white school. I tried to fight it at home and my parents were not having it, I was gonna do it. 

Needless to say I had attitude going to that first class, met the teacher who was obviously new to the school, she was such a strong character, scary too but Sepedi was just rolling off her tongue, she made it so desirable but I fought it, I fought the thought that I might possibly like the subject. However being in the competitive state that is high school I desired to be the best in the class even with things I didn't particularly like.

I realise now that I had actually loved Sepedi, I love speaking it now, especially with people who are fluent re bolele le ka diema, direto and the works. It's such a beautiful language and I wanna teach it to my children.