So I'm almost 21 and I was having a bit of a moment, lol. I was thinking of the many people who've touched my life, so many people who've contributed either their entire lives or a few seconds to my life and just how God has used all of my experiences for my good, wow!!! my life is in His hands. Then I was thinking, my mom wanted to have a traditional 21st for me, as in big white tent in the yard vibe, well more my mom's friend than her, lol. But I said no, I actually just realized that I said no not only because I think its just super ghetto but I also wonder what is there about me to celebrate?! Like I don't feel as though I'm at a place in my life where entire parties should be thrown. God digs me though! He says that I don't have to do anything, He'll throw a feast for me, an entire feast...So Im gonna have a Happy Birthday...
So God is allowed to throw an entire party for you, but your mother (if she so wished), or even other people that know you cannot? why? u dont feel like you deserve it? u dont feel satisfied with yourself enough to be okay with people celebrating your life? ke eng? are u waiting til u die when people will want to hold memorials and big funerals and after tears for you to celebrate/remember what a big deal you were? You are a big deal. not only to God. To us all. To each person who has a permanent position in your life. I mean, if God thinks you area big deal,then you ARE a big deal. Period. You are. To everyone, whether they know it or not. And God has the final say, sooo. Ja. :)
ReplyDeleteLove, Rebby. :)