Things have changed...(a)

So much has changed in my life, I have to pause sometimes and work out what's what. I'm now studying music!! It's been really interesting on many levels. The academic material has been challenging but I'm so drawn to it, I want to know more, experience more- so amazing. People's response to my decision has been all shades of interesting. Ranging from the motherly "you could have just finished, it's just one more year" almost suggesting that you just kind of rock up for a year and they hand you a degree! disregarding that a year is 365 days (well an academic year is less), consisting of every single lecture and tutorial I'm required to attend and time spent studying. The most common response has been "*sigh* at least you're doing what you love" as if to say I'm being foolish but shem at least I love my folly. For the people close to me it's kinda been "Oh my word! Finally" these are the people who saw the difference between life and death in my life on full display. It is rather sad how a lot of us are prepared to spend most of our lives doing stuff we don't like and all because of the biggest dream quencher- fear. My life is so uncertain at the moment, stripped off security- I don't even know how I'm gonna pay for my fees next year, lol! But all in or nothing right?