It's a new day

I'm having a very slow day, feeling a little bleh...and when I feel like this I do a few things, I pray...usually ask God what's going on if I don't know the cause of the feeling, if I do then I ask what I'm suppose to take away from this gloomy feeling, I always feel like surely there's a reward for feeling so crappy, lol!. Then I read quotes and sometimes the Bible, but mostly quotes.
I read quotes because there is always someone out there able to put into such perfect English and grammatical order what I'm feeling... or so I thought.
Today I couldn't find a single accurate one, I mean some came close but it wasn't the one. Then for a while I felt tempted to settle for a close one, when I realized I had done that, I wanted to smack myself over the head. Like?! what was I doing? Then I realized this whole quote thing I do is so that I don't feel alone, like so much solace comes from knowing that I'm not the only human in existence feeling whatever I'm feeling at the time for reasons I can't always explain. The thing is that was also a way to just sort of feel better, without the discomfort of dealing or confrontation and all the nice things that are not so nice to do with getting to healing, if feeling better is all I can possibly get out of a sucky situation, I mean God and I would have a bone to pick. So none of that stuff anymore. Today I get to face myself, the feelings and possibly not resolving them today, today I get to live the questions.